How can one year be gone already?
I ask that.
Time marches on.
Like a million leaves falling...
My memories mimic the season.
My feelings too.
Sadness, constant sadness.
Confusion.
Depression.
Anger.
Loss.
Tears...oh so many tears.
Emptiness.
Struggle.
Weakness.
I cannot bear to visit her grave. She should not be there, she should be with me...with us.
I accidently write her name.
I accidently call her in from play....still.
I dream of her and awake with tears and crying sighs.
I feel the emptiness she left behind. Oh how I feel it.
I receive gifts in her honor, I feel mocked and wish for her. I don't want things, I want her.
I have little shrines to help us remember what I can never forget.
She's gone and so is a part of me.
I feel bad this seems so dark, so bleak. But this grief is so great, so heavy. I miss her so much, there aren't enough words to describe how much.
