It's unpredictable as weather, only with more variations.
I can laugh, smile and cry at the same time.
I can hold a child while longing for another.
"You haven't combed your hair in how many days?"
Christmas music makes me cry.
Kindness makes me cry.
As a pastor and wife we are supposed to be reaching out....but we have so. little. energy.
I want to forget (or at least not think about it for awhile) yet I desperately want to remember!
I am so blessed, but I still want her back.
"How long will I hurt?" Oh...... it's only been 6 weeks.
Who's counting? I am!!!!!
He has wiped every tear from her eyes, taken her pain away FOREVER.....
but I still hurt, and cry.
This is MY pain.
"No it's OUR pain"-God
You didn't heal her!!!! "Yes I did...and unlike the miracles, the healing's in the Bible, I healed her permanently!"
Grief is the gift that keeps on giving...pain.
There is no such thing as good grief!
Life is sweet, so bitter sweet. I have learned it's ok to be angry, angry at God..... at life. You can be angry with God but still trust Him. He is my Abba Father.... my Daddy God. I express my feelings to Him and He doesn't turn away. I see His arms open in compassion and His eyes fill with tears....for me....for my pain.
Rest assured your heart is broken and will break again.
My heart has been breaking one piece at a time since Karagen's diagnoses April 4, 2012. That day will forever live in infamy.
There is a Savior,
What joys expressed,
His eyes of mercy,
His word is rest,
For each tomorrow, for yesterday,
There is a Savior who lights our way
While grief has no known route, and the road of it twists and turns unpredictably, God is helping guide us through this journey. I feel like this journey has no "map", only a faithful ever present guide, the Savior who promised "I will be with you!" Grief is a dark place....yet it does not consume. Its darkness is lit by trust and hope, in our God who will never leave or forsake. "When I could not come.... to where He was, He came to me!"